Parental Roles: Yo, back off already!

Excuse me for not updating recently. I haven’t decided to put aside the time to update this blog due to various factors, especially the multiple sources of depression I’m living with. One of the largest sources of stress that I am STILL dealing with is my girlfriend’s parents, especially her mother. Just as a reminder, I am currently together with a 16 year old girl. I am 24 years old. Yes, I know what I’m doing, am completely serious, and am very sane. After all, if I wasn’t serious, why would I have stayed with her for this long? Happy 15 months starting today, Mari~

That said, there has been a new fiasco in my relationship that I don’t get. Mari’s been around the internet for a long time, and is more than familiar with the adult content it harbors. She even enjoys to draw some of that adult content herself. The problem is one or two of these images were found out by her mother. Her sister invaded her privacy, started clicking around, and found a couple of images she drew. While they are sexual in nature, they are not overly explicit. They’re pretty mild in all honestly.

Upon discovering these images, her mother and father have blown up. I had no hand in the images which were drawn in the first place, and yet I was completely and totally blamed for them. Why? Because my domain here, instantairdash.com, was hosting the images. To these internet commoners, this must mean that I commissioned the drawings in question, then uploaded them to my website. Sounds plausible? Hardly. Mari has her own FTP account with this host which I setup for her. I don’t monitor everything she does with it. However, now I am to blame for the very creation of these images. Did these people go to college? Did they take a class which taught them what logical fallacies are? Do they care? I doubt it, and if they did learn these things, then they intentionally forgot them.

So, once again, I’m not allowed to spend any personal, quality time with my girlfriend. This is very frustrating to me. I don’t need any sort of sexual release at this point, but I do have a need for intimate contact. I want to cuddle and feel safe and happy. I imagine most people want that kind of safe feeling. The problem is, when we first met, we were pretty much free to do as we pleased 2-3 times per week during the summer of 2008. Now that her mother doesn’t want this to happen anymore, life feels very empty. You get used to a feeling, and when it’s taken away, it hurts twice as much.

So here’s the fucking deal, Gabriela. You let me start coming over to see your daughter again in April. I decided to be on my best behavior to make sure that nothing could separate us again. However, in your delusional mind, I have wronged you somehow. Fuck. You. There is no reason for me to do something so stupid as to encourage Mari to openly draw porn before she’s 18. There is no way I would do ANYTHING to endanger our relationship. The fact that you are unwilling to talk to the parties involved about any of this and instead jump to conclusions and point fingers shows just how much of a weak person you are. I almost hope you see what I have to say here so you understand I mean business.

I have your naughty emails. I have the email transcripts between you, (removed for safety), and people like (removed for safety) and (removed for safety). IF YOU WANT RESPECT, YOU’LL HAVE TO EARN IT. IF YOU, AS A PARENT, WISH TO CLAIM ANY AUTHORITY OVER YOUR CHILDREN, YOU WILL NEED TO BE TRUSTWORTHY. You are a married woman, married to one Arturo Garcia. You were married to another man in Mexico before you divorced him and left the country. You had CYBER SEX with people on the internet for reasons unknown to me. You cheated on your husband. I know your relationship with Arturo is terrible. I laugh with irony that you in your perfect and unmovable parental wisdom could somehow marry two different people and fuck up on both of them. You need to back off. Mari doesn’t want your “help” as a parent. You’re a bad example. You not a respectable person. Your priorities are all wrong. And you know what? Even if you hound your daughter for the next 20 months, it won’t change the fact that she will leave your home for good once she is of the proper age to do so.

REPENT NOW. UNDERSTAND YOUR FAULTS. THIS ISN’T MEXICO ANYMORE. YOUR DAUGHTER’S LIVES AREN’T YOUR STOMPING GROUNDS. MORE THAN ANYONE ELSE YOU KNOW, YOU NEED TO GET A LIFE AND START ENJOYING YOURSELF AGAIN INSTEAD OF RAGGING ON YOUR CHILDREN. COME ON, YOU EVEN HAVE A 20 YEAR OLD GIRL STILL LIVING AT HOME WITH YOU. HOW CAN YOU BE A GOOD MOTHER IF YOU CLAIM YOU CAN’T SLEEP UNLESS YOUR 20 YEAR OLD DAUGHTER IS HOME AND IN BED ALREADY? FUCK YOU, YOU CLINGY FAILURE. LET GO OF YOUR CHILDREN ALREADY AND LET THEM GROW.

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God I’m angry at this situation. Pent up frustration from not even being able to get close to what I want. I’ll probably discard this topic for a while unless something juicy pops up. I want to write two movie reviews next. The first is for a movie called “God on Trial”, the second for “The Man Who Sued God”. Both are excellent films and really illustrate the problems with the current claim on a divine creator as he was originally understood (that is, misunderstood).